-No.

That's what it said on the pregnancy test. We bought a Digital Gold First Response. It's supposed to detect if you're pregnant 5 days before a missed period. Well I took it five days before I missed my period and then again three days before I missed a period and both were a No..otherwise known as a negative result.

My period is officially a day late as of today. By the end of today I will be two days late. I'm hoping that the breastfeeding is what's keeping the test from turning positive. I might have ovulated after i thought I did which according to my last period should have been on the 7Th. I didn't get a positive result with Kendall until I was five weeks along and if that holds true with this baby then I have to wait until next week.

I have all the symptoms, hungry all the time, bloated, nasty increase in discharge, swollen/enlarged boobies that are sensitive to the touch (I don't mind). I'm also hella exhausted too. I have insomnia and it's killing me. I have been up all night. I updated my new blog that i started when I made my first cake from class which by the way is going great. I just can't seem to get to sleep though. I sleep all day if Kendall lets me.

Can I say something? Why the hell do people assume I do nothing with my time? My aunt asked me to baby sit this weekend. I agreed because she is giving me a refrigerator for free, well in exchange for babysitting time. But come one...it's turning out to be once a month. Overnight stays too. And even if I wasn't exhausted from being possibly preggo I would have had my period this weekend and I am intolerable during that time. UGH. And my phone was off for an entire week. We couldn't pay the bill. Don't you know as soon as we turned it back on is when she called. During my nap no less. I just said I'd do it. I didn't feel like making a sob story and plus I told my aunt I thought i had a miscarriage in February and she just said oh..you guys didn't learn your lesson the first time? She is referring to us not using condoms. A bit unsympathetic.

My family still sees me as a kid, or at least someone they have to take care of. That's the only reason I ant to just get married. So they would at least see Greg as my caretaker and me as his. Greg's parents do the same thing. That's another reason we decided to have a child. We thought about it and weighed the pros and cons and made the decision based on us and what's best for our family and our situation. We're not telling folks until later because we don't want to hear it like we're school kids who just got pregnant before prom. We're at the baby making age, prime baby making age at that.

And it makes sense. i want to be a stay at home mom. I do eventually want to start a career so I might as well stay home with two if I know I want more than one kid right? It doesn't make sense to start a career that I would have to leave again once the new baby is conceived? No sense at all. Might as well get it over with now. At least get two of them together.

Anyway..going to try to finally get some sleep.

Still a work in progress...

So i know I suck at this whole blog thing. I don't have any followers as of yet so ha. To the one person who inspired to keep this up where are you?

Anyway, things are going good. We're dead broke but Greg is up for a promotion as soon as he can pass some test that I am helping him study for. good news is I am taking cake decorating classes so I can bake and decorate cakes on the side and earn some extra cash. Hopefully it turns into a full fledged business.

Kendall is 8 months old now. She has two tiny teeth coming in and I am guessing she is at least 21lbs by now. She is so chunky it's so adorable. She can pull up and stand up and crawl and mumble...all these amazing things that she couldn't do just months before. It's amazing to watch a human being grow up. It's even more amazing to watch them flourish mostly because of the way you take care of them.

I'll admit that I am not always the most confident Mom but i do a good job of hiding my insecurities, everywhere but this blog. People love it when I am wrong anyway since in my circle of folks I am seen as the know-it-all. people are constantly in competition with me and it's like they always remember when I lose. Which let me tell you if few an far between but never the less reality if only for a moment in time. Listen to me. I'm talking like a know-it-all too. I'm conditioned.

You don't believe me do you. Here's an example. I'll be over someones house and since everyone knows how crafty I am someone will show me something they have made and expect me to oooh and ahhhh over it. Even if it's great and I say so it seems that's not enough. I guess I have to goo goo over it to make it seem as if I am impressed and envious of their talents. I might be impressed but why want me to feel all green with envy? I assume that is what I am supposed to feel when the simple "Oh that's amazing" doesn't suffice. And this happens only with other Moms' that I speak to. It's like they say to themselves...oh if she can do it so can I. Not a bad attitude but don't assume that I should feel the same way when I see something you do and are good at. It's your talent and if I felt so inclined as to take a whack at it, I would do so, but I wouldn't need to be validated by their opinions of my work.

Ugh...tangents though.

Let's see...Greg and I are trying to have another baby. Yep. We started fucking like rabbits last week every other day like clockwork we are bumping bodies. We know we want a large family and he promised that this pregnancy was not going to be the same in terms of his attitude towards the whole thing. I believe him since he seems to have grown up a lot since we've met. So far his sister know,s My friend Syreeta knows, My Nana knows and anyone who checks my blog knows. Oh and all my fruity mommas online know...I tell them everything!

I'm pretty excited about it. The baby would be due on My mother's birthday if I were to get pregnant. It's kind of hard to get pregnant while breastfeeding so that's why we are boning all month long instead of just the week. i was supposedly ovulating last week but we'll see. I'll be back to post an update next week or so when I get my period or take a pregnancy test.

Here's hoping for the positive.